Wednesday, January 10, 2007
LIFE - Mind Of A Mankind - Chapter Twenty-Eight
YOU'RE HAPPY, I'M HAPPY
"Love all but Heru is number One!"
I said this to Heru (1995, Bali)
In 1994, after my mother's demised, I became a man who wanted to have a meaningful life as a human. I tried to help my own family in Bali and also other people for this reason, to become a better person. I saw all my past actions and words that I had rendered on other people. I regretted for leaving Singapore and I began to dislike the attitude of Yani too because she began to become like a woman who was insensitive to other people problems or feelings. I saw in Noorasmah a wonderful woman who has all the values and loves that any man would wish for as a wife. I had realised my mistakes and I began to wonder what would happen to me, should I return to Singapore to face the Law and those people that I had cheated? I reviewed my life over and over again and I saw I had no good future in Indonesia if I remained there. I hated myself living a life of a fugitive. I did not miss Singapore but I missed my family in Singapore. The person that I missed the most was Noorasmah. I knew she was in miseries because there were few things that I had not settled with her, especially, about our marriage and our flat. I thought about her many times until I felt my heart was yearning for her to be near me again. I wished to return to her like a husband and I also missed my home in Singapore.
In August 1994, Lek Min decided to return to Malang, East Java, because she was uncomfortable living in Bali partly because Hinduism was the main religion in Bali. And not long after that, Yani and I went home to Yani's village again in Madiun, East Java, to fetch another younger brother of hers Rosman and her nephew Fajar, to live with us and studied in Bali.
Rosman was about 13 years old and he continued his studies in SMP 1 (almost equivalent to Secondary One standard in Singapore) while Fajar who was about 5 years old would be registered in TK 1 (Kindergarten School) in Bali.
I wanted Yani and Adi to be happy, having their own family living with them and I did not want them to worry so much about their family back at the village. So by having Rosman and Fajar around them, I felt it would lessen their worries. Yani and I felt that Bali would offer them a better future and perhaps I felt lonely too because I wanted to have my own family in Bali. I began to cherish the values of love relationships among family partly because I had learned it from my family from the spirit world.
Heru came to meet me after Fajar started his days at the Kindergarten School in Tuban, near Kuta. This school was inside the premises of a Moslem mosque, just next to it. He told me that he had followed Fajar to learn to read and write. He said that there was a male soul wearing green attire while he was there. The male spirit kept the mosque and school cleaned. At the same time he would take care of the serinity of the premises.
There was a time before Fajar and Rosman came to Bali, Heru wrote a few alphabets, which were like children handwriting. The alphabet B was written in a reversed manner and I would correct his mistakes. He wrote down his name "HERU" to show me his writing skills but the alphabet R was written in the reversed manner too. And I would correct him and he would rewrite it again correctly after that. Then he would also write down the names of Soni, Budi, Immi Natalia and Impi Gordon. He said that Budi had taught him to spell and write.
So, when Fajar attended school, there were occasions whereby Heru would pick-up any books or magazines to read to me in Bahasa Indonesia but he was just jestering with me to make me laughed and he would childishly laughed too at his own actioned. All those readings were wild readings that he had imagined while the reading material was in his hand. There were many times he had actually asked me to teach him to read a book. Sometimes I yielded to his requests but sometimes I was just too exhausted to teach him. Yani was literate in writing and reading.
There were times when Yani was asleep, then Heru was also sleeping too. Sometimes when I was still awake, Heru while in Yani's body and mind, he would mumble sleepily in a few words. I had noticed, he was actually sleeping and when that occurred, I would pat him to sleep again. I knew it was Heru because I heard his familiar childish voice.
There were also numerous times when he went to the toilet to urinate or pass motion when natures called for it. Sometimes he had constipation too and he would complain about it. Once he told me that a female spirit next door had told him this,"Heru, tell your Papi to buy more Papaya for you to eat so that Heru will not have difficulties when passing motion." He would also remember to wash cleaned after that too. When I asked him who had taught him that, he mentioned that Natalia had taught him to do that. Heru would like to stand while urinating because that was the way a guy would do it and I would remind him that his Mami was a female.
We took showers together numerous times and he liked to shower with lots of soap foams on his body. He loved to be scrubbed at the back and he loved to apply soap on to a small hand towel for him to scrub himself, as though like a western method of cleaning oneself while showering or while soaking oneself in a bathtub, which was totally unlike Yani.
When Yani and I had sex, Heru said that he would go away from us and Yani was herself; but later when he returned to meet me again, he said that he had peeked at us through the door keyhole. Sometimes, Budi and Soni would be there to peek too. Then he would laughed and smiled at me with the tip of his tongue sticking out, cutely.
He loved to watch 'Robo Cop' movies. Heru loved to fantasize that he was Robo Cop himself. Robo Cop was like his ideal hero.
I usually cut my own hair. Then Yani would complain that it looked awful when I cut my own hair. Then one day, while at the restaurant in the late afternoon, while I was sitting at the table observing people walking by, Heru suddenly took my hand and pulled me up. He said that he wanted me to follow him to show something special to me. There were no customers at that time. Then while walking he had remained silent when I kept asking him what was it that he wanted to show me. Then we suddenly stopped walking and he pointed his finger to that special thing and place that he wanted to show me. We were standing in front of a hair salon and he said,"Papi, this hair salon is good. Papi must cut Papi's hair because it looks untidy and ulgy." When I had refused he cried loudly in public. I had to follow his wished or else he would cry even harder and I would feel embarrassed. Inside the hair salon Yani consciousness came back on again but she was not surprised at all that we ended up inside a hair salon. Yani spoke to the lady that I needed a good and neat hair cut in Javanese but I was not so sure whether it was Yani or Heru. Inside the hair salon, she was quiet and always watching me while the lady cut my hair. After having cut my hair later, Heru smiled widely with the tip of his tongue sticking out. He was satisfied and he complimented me about my new look. He told me that he had a hair cut too and he had styled it according to the boy's hairstyle in the movie 'Terminator - Judgement Day.' He told me that there was a female spirit at the hair salon and she was kind towards him. He said that the female spirit had asked him about me and he had told her that I was his Papi. He said that she had smiled at Papi while I was inside the hair salon. I remembered looking at the lady while she was cutting my hair and she was smiling at me. Was she Heru too?
In 1994, most of the time, we went swimming at the small hotel and restaurant that my Balinese close friend showed us. His uncle owned a small hotel and restaurant with a swimming pool at the beach front in Kuta. This place was next to Club Risata Hotel - Bali.
"Love all but Heru is number One!"
I said this to Heru (1995, Bali)
In 1994, after my mother's demised, I became a man who wanted to have a meaningful life as a human. I tried to help my own family in Bali and also other people for this reason, to become a better person. I saw all my past actions and words that I had rendered on other people. I regretted for leaving Singapore and I began to dislike the attitude of Yani too because she began to become like a woman who was insensitive to other people problems or feelings. I saw in Noorasmah a wonderful woman who has all the values and loves that any man would wish for as a wife. I had realised my mistakes and I began to wonder what would happen to me, should I return to Singapore to face the Law and those people that I had cheated? I reviewed my life over and over again and I saw I had no good future in Indonesia if I remained there. I hated myself living a life of a fugitive. I did not miss Singapore but I missed my family in Singapore. The person that I missed the most was Noorasmah. I knew she was in miseries because there were few things that I had not settled with her, especially, about our marriage and our flat. I thought about her many times until I felt my heart was yearning for her to be near me again. I wished to return to her like a husband and I also missed my home in Singapore.
In August 1994, Lek Min decided to return to Malang, East Java, because she was uncomfortable living in Bali partly because Hinduism was the main religion in Bali. And not long after that, Yani and I went home to Yani's village again in Madiun, East Java, to fetch another younger brother of hers Rosman and her nephew Fajar, to live with us and studied in Bali.
Rosman was about 13 years old and he continued his studies in SMP 1 (almost equivalent to Secondary One standard in Singapore) while Fajar who was about 5 years old would be registered in TK 1 (Kindergarten School) in Bali.
I wanted Yani and Adi to be happy, having their own family living with them and I did not want them to worry so much about their family back at the village. So by having Rosman and Fajar around them, I felt it would lessen their worries. Yani and I felt that Bali would offer them a better future and perhaps I felt lonely too because I wanted to have my own family in Bali. I began to cherish the values of love relationships among family partly because I had learned it from my family from the spirit world.
Heru came to meet me after Fajar started his days at the Kindergarten School in Tuban, near Kuta. This school was inside the premises of a Moslem mosque, just next to it. He told me that he had followed Fajar to learn to read and write. He said that there was a male soul wearing green attire while he was there. The male spirit kept the mosque and school cleaned. At the same time he would take care of the serinity of the premises.
There was a time before Fajar and Rosman came to Bali, Heru wrote a few alphabets, which were like children handwriting. The alphabet B was written in a reversed manner and I would correct his mistakes. He wrote down his name "HERU" to show me his writing skills but the alphabet R was written in the reversed manner too. And I would correct him and he would rewrite it again correctly after that. Then he would also write down the names of Soni, Budi, Immi Natalia and Impi Gordon. He said that Budi had taught him to spell and write.
So, when Fajar attended school, there were occasions whereby Heru would pick-up any books or magazines to read to me in Bahasa Indonesia but he was just jestering with me to make me laughed and he would childishly laughed too at his own actioned. All those readings were wild readings that he had imagined while the reading material was in his hand. There were many times he had actually asked me to teach him to read a book. Sometimes I yielded to his requests but sometimes I was just too exhausted to teach him. Yani was literate in writing and reading.
There were times when Yani was asleep, then Heru was also sleeping too. Sometimes when I was still awake, Heru while in Yani's body and mind, he would mumble sleepily in a few words. I had noticed, he was actually sleeping and when that occurred, I would pat him to sleep again. I knew it was Heru because I heard his familiar childish voice.
There were also numerous times when he went to the toilet to urinate or pass motion when natures called for it. Sometimes he had constipation too and he would complain about it. Once he told me that a female spirit next door had told him this,"Heru, tell your Papi to buy more Papaya for you to eat so that Heru will not have difficulties when passing motion." He would also remember to wash cleaned after that too. When I asked him who had taught him that, he mentioned that Natalia had taught him to do that. Heru would like to stand while urinating because that was the way a guy would do it and I would remind him that his Mami was a female.
We took showers together numerous times and he liked to shower with lots of soap foams on his body. He loved to be scrubbed at the back and he loved to apply soap on to a small hand towel for him to scrub himself, as though like a western method of cleaning oneself while showering or while soaking oneself in a bathtub, which was totally unlike Yani.
When Yani and I had sex, Heru said that he would go away from us and Yani was herself; but later when he returned to meet me again, he said that he had peeked at us through the door keyhole. Sometimes, Budi and Soni would be there to peek too. Then he would laughed and smiled at me with the tip of his tongue sticking out, cutely.
He loved to watch 'Robo Cop' movies. Heru loved to fantasize that he was Robo Cop himself. Robo Cop was like his ideal hero.
I usually cut my own hair. Then Yani would complain that it looked awful when I cut my own hair. Then one day, while at the restaurant in the late afternoon, while I was sitting at the table observing people walking by, Heru suddenly took my hand and pulled me up. He said that he wanted me to follow him to show something special to me. There were no customers at that time. Then while walking he had remained silent when I kept asking him what was it that he wanted to show me. Then we suddenly stopped walking and he pointed his finger to that special thing and place that he wanted to show me. We were standing in front of a hair salon and he said,"Papi, this hair salon is good. Papi must cut Papi's hair because it looks untidy and ulgy." When I had refused he cried loudly in public. I had to follow his wished or else he would cry even harder and I would feel embarrassed. Inside the hair salon Yani consciousness came back on again but she was not surprised at all that we ended up inside a hair salon. Yani spoke to the lady that I needed a good and neat hair cut in Javanese but I was not so sure whether it was Yani or Heru. Inside the hair salon, she was quiet and always watching me while the lady cut my hair. After having cut my hair later, Heru smiled widely with the tip of his tongue sticking out. He was satisfied and he complimented me about my new look. He told me that he had a hair cut too and he had styled it according to the boy's hairstyle in the movie 'Terminator - Judgement Day.' He told me that there was a female spirit at the hair salon and she was kind towards him. He said that the female spirit had asked him about me and he had told her that I was his Papi. He said that she had smiled at Papi while I was inside the hair salon. I remembered looking at the lady while she was cutting my hair and she was smiling at me. Was she Heru too?
In 1994, most of the time, we went swimming at the small hotel and restaurant that my Balinese close friend showed us. His uncle owned a small hotel and restaurant with a swimming pool at the beach front in Kuta. This place was next to Club Risata Hotel - Bali.
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With Love,
Joe
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